After the storm has past...

I'm like so glad the weekend is over. Haven't had a busier one in a super long time (but I'm not keen to break the record anytime soon)

On saturday morning, I practically did a one-man show for BB Y2s program (with the exception of drill). That included First Aid (which I found out the night before, and had to scramble to get my facts together), and leading/playing for worship during CE (went better than the last time I did that. good practice:) After that, we had planning/co-ord meeting for the Y2 training program. (talk about a packed morning).

Mum & Dad fetched me home, and I had a chance to chill a little before heading to school to "study". (Actually, I just wanted to drag Bang for fusion after that, which I only found out about in ACS(I) that morning cos I could hear planetshakers raising the roof). Well, let's just say that fushion was simply awesome, and we both enjoyed it loads. WE LOVE OUR GOD!!!

Sunday was the maddest rush I had in a long time. I was doing sound system for service in the morning (both of them actually), and due to last-minute re-connection and stuff (as well as loads of other last minute presentations that found their way to me), the stress level was rather -_-. I was really grateful for how Chee Kin helped with the setup and sound checks despite having to play that day, and later on for encouraging me after 1st service when I was feeling a little down about how it went. Just before 2nd service, I ran off because I was leading worship for the youths (with almost no rehearsing). Thankfully, God provided and I truly enjoyed the experience of leading yet again:)) It was rush back to service after that, and the rest was pretty smooth sailing after that.

I can't quite begin to recall how exhausted I was when I reached home, and I told myself that I would go running to de-stress (well, the rain put an end to my plans, and I didn't feel like sleeping), so I sat around attempting to study MLE (midterms are this sat...omg), although I spent the most time disturbing Yin online (oops..:p) and watching random stuff on youtube.

This morning was simply beautiful, and I told myself I was going to go running whether rain, shine or hail. As I dragged myself through 21K, I was just singing "Beautiful Saviour" to myself, reminiscing the experiences at fusion. For some reason, the same old issue came back to haunt me around the ~10K range and I was trying not to think about it. Then I felt God saying: "Jon, you know I'm in control here, and I'm taking this a lot more seriously than you yourself ever could. Just trust me for the outcome". It was an amazing sensation of peace after that as I could enjoy the surrounding scenery of botanic gardens and learn to let my thoughts rest.

I just tried the sample EC2101 midterm paper, and the result was super disappointing.:(( Time to study

Oh God help me...

I'm suddenly so stressed again... BB stuff has a way of cropping up all at once, and it doesn't help that mid-terms aren't far away.

Why must this be the time when I have to struggle hardest with my feelings almost each day?

God, please be my strength when I need You...